Fill Me Up

*Sigh*

It's been a difficult few months.  Between the stress of moving/getting settled in Kansas and Jon being away at NTC/preparing for deployment, I was starting to feel a bit drained.  Kansas started losing its initial "sparkle" and I began feeling more and more "Michigan Sick". (MS is like homesickness, but it's where you miss Michigan so much, you begin to tear up every time you see a Pure Michigan commercial.)

Just when I thought I couldn't take one more day of Kansas, we were able to go on leave from the army for about 10 days.  We first drove back to Chicago to see my family for a day and then made our way up to Michigan so Hubs could see his friends and family before he deploys.

This trip has already been extremely uplifting.  Spending time with friends and family has refreshed my tired soul.  I was able to spend some quality time with friends and realized that I am not alone in what I've been feeling lately.  I learned that a lot of people my age struggle with the transitions of moving and making new friends--even if they didn't have to move all the way to Kansas.  I also realized that I probably need to make a better effort in keeping up with those friends.

When I went to staff worship at SpringHill yesterday, I felt like God was trying to tell me to really trust in His plan.  I am realizing that there is a reason He sent us to Kansas.  There's even a reason why Hubs has to deploy in September.  God has a perfect plan and I need to trust that He knows what He's doing...easier said than done.  Lately I've been holding on so tight to things that I really have no control over.  I need to just hand them over to God and say, "Ok.  Here you go.  I trust you."

So even though it's going to be really hard, I am going to give this year to God.  I have to have faith that He will take care of both Hubs and me.  

One year

This post is also late.

One year ago, on July 2, 2011, I married the love of my life.

Now a year later I can say we've lived in four different states (MI, IL, MO, and KS, for those that are keeping track).  I can also say we've had our ups and downs.  The Army has taught us a lot about patience and compassion.  We've learned how to fight effectively.  We've learned how to be flexible and understanding.  We've learned that time is precious and we need to make the most of the time we have together.  We're no experts on marriage, that's for sure.  I do feel however, that we might be learning some lessons faster than most people do.  I mean seriously, can anyone else say they've lived in 4 different states in their first year of marriage??  Talk about testing your relationship...I'm still surprised we didn't kill each other after that last move.  But isn't that what marriage and love is all about?  We promised to stick by each other through the good times and the bad.  We said we'd put the each other's needs before our own.  We promised to love each other forever.  Even though we've faced a lot of challenges this year, I am so thankful to have Hubs on my team.  He's amazing.

Summary of June

Wow...I don't even want to look at the date of my previous post.  It's been so long since I've written an update.  For that, I apologize.

June in a nutshell:
1- Hubs left for NTC...saying goodbye sucked
2- Worked at the Buckle
3- Mom and Sister came to visit and it was wonderful
4- Started rewatching How I Met Your Mother on Netflix again
5- Missed Hubs a lot....a lot a lot a lot
6- Worked at the Buckle some more
7- Missed Hubs some more
8- Realized I needed a teaching job in order to keep me sane during Hubs' deployment
9- Hubs came home on the 28th!!!
10- Secured a teaching job at Fort Riley Middle School for next fall!!