Fill Me Up

*Sigh*

It's been a difficult few months.  Between the stress of moving/getting settled in Kansas and Jon being away at NTC/preparing for deployment, I was starting to feel a bit drained.  Kansas started losing its initial "sparkle" and I began feeling more and more "Michigan Sick". (MS is like homesickness, but it's where you miss Michigan so much, you begin to tear up every time you see a Pure Michigan commercial.)

Just when I thought I couldn't take one more day of Kansas, we were able to go on leave from the army for about 10 days.  We first drove back to Chicago to see my family for a day and then made our way up to Michigan so Hubs could see his friends and family before he deploys.

This trip has already been extremely uplifting.  Spending time with friends and family has refreshed my tired soul.  I was able to spend some quality time with friends and realized that I am not alone in what I've been feeling lately.  I learned that a lot of people my age struggle with the transitions of moving and making new friends--even if they didn't have to move all the way to Kansas.  I also realized that I probably need to make a better effort in keeping up with those friends.

When I went to staff worship at SpringHill yesterday, I felt like God was trying to tell me to really trust in His plan.  I am realizing that there is a reason He sent us to Kansas.  There's even a reason why Hubs has to deploy in September.  God has a perfect plan and I need to trust that He knows what He's doing...easier said than done.  Lately I've been holding on so tight to things that I really have no control over.  I need to just hand them over to God and say, "Ok.  Here you go.  I trust you."

So even though it's going to be really hard, I am going to give this year to God.  I have to have faith that He will take care of both Hubs and me.